How Does It Feel?

How does it feel,
To know you're unwanted?
To know you're not good enough?

To know you aren't his.

How does it feel,
To remember the pain,
the suffering
The want.

The lust.

I know,

It hurts,
a dull ache, a sharp ache.

An unbearable ache,
an ache you can't escape.

Tears spill,
blood spills,
I break.